Call back your Spirit or Die

The following is my favorite healing story. I first heard this account from higher consciousness teacher, Caroline Myss, who learned this first-hand from her friend and our protagonist, David Chethlahe Paladin. And extra special bits were added by Lynda Paladin, our protagonist’s wife.

The story becomes a bit like the game, “Telephone,” in that in every retelling the story morphs a little bit this way and a little bit that way. I have heard this story countless times and repeated this story countless times, I now offer this to you like a tumbled stone that is well-worn with passage.

So, without further ado, let’s go back in time and let me introduce you to our hero:

David Chethlahe Paladin is a Navaho Indian living on a reservation in Arizona. David would laughingly say that his mother was a nun and his father was a priest. It turns out his mother became pregnant by a visiting priest. She, in turn, decides to become a nursing nun and leaves her son in the care of the extended family of their tribe.

David and his cousin spend a great deal of time leaving the reservation and going into town. They drink a lot, and they think life is better in the white man’s world. The local constabulary is forever returning the boys to the reservation. By the time David is 13 years of age, he is an alcoholic.

David and his cousin determine that they are going to make it off the reservation once and for all – and they do. They find their way to California, wherein they lie about their ages and sign up for work with the Merchant Marines, where David befriends another young man from Germany. He also begins drawing; some of his sketches include the eventual bunkers that the Japanese are building on the atolls in the Pacific Ocean.

World War II is declared. The US Army tells David that since he lied about his age with the Merchant Marines he has a choice. He can go to jail for a year or enlist in the army. David enlists. He is a teenager.

The army tells David as he is a Navaho, they are going to drop him behind enemy lines and use him as an information gatherer in their special services. David, using his native language, is to relay his findings to another Navaho in the army. Their language becomes a code that the Germans are unable to crack, much less decipher.

David is dropped behind enemy lines. Ultimately, he is captured and interrogated for information. The German officers find him useless and direct that he be sent to a death camp and executed as a spy.

Imagine, if you will, the scenes we all have invariably seen of the railroad station and the platform filled with lines of prisoners being pushed into box cars for transport to the camps.

Here is David. He is being pushed and shoved into a boxcar. There is German soldier behind him saying “Schnell, schnell” (quick, quick). David stops, turns around and looks at the German soldier. It is his friend from the merchant ship. The friend recognizes David and ushers him to a different box car that will send David to Dachau.

In the barracks at Dachau, David sees an older man, a fellow prisoner, drop something. David bends down to retrieve it. The guard, who has witnessed this moment, asks David, “Are you the Christ?”

The guard then orders that David’s feet be nailed to the floor and that David stand there with his arms outstretched for three days like Christ on the cross. Every time David would falter and crumple the guards would hoist him up again. In the middle of the night, someone would sneak in and cram raw, maggot-covered chicken innards into David’s mouth.

When the Allies open up this camp, they find David a mere shell of a man, weighing maybe 70 pounds, and speaking Russian*. They turn David over to the Russians. David later speaks English and gives his name, rank and serial number to the Russians who transfer him back to the US military.

David is sent to a VA hospital in Battle Creek Michigan where he spends the next 2 years in a coma. At the end of two years, his legs are encased in metal braces, similar to what polio patients used. David, a young man, maybe not even 21 years of age, is to be sent to a VA home for the rest of his life.

David asks if he can visit his family on the reservation. The answer is, “Of course.” David literally drags himself onto the reservation. He meets with the elders of tribe. They ask to hear his whole story. David tells them every horrible thing that he endured. He is full of anger, rage and hate.

The elders confer and tell David to meet them tomorrow at a designated point on the Little Colorado River. David agrees and at the appointed hour he arrives. One of the elders tethers a rope around his waist; others remove the braces from his legs. They hoist David up into the air and as they throw him into the raging current of the Little Colorado River, they say, “Chethlahe, call back your spirit or die. Call back your spirit or die.”

David would later say that those moments in the Little Colorado River were the very hardest of his life. He had to fight himself for himself. And he was able to see the big picture; he understood why things unfolded as they did. For example, he realized that the raw chicken parts were meant as a source of protein to sustain him so that he might live.

David Paladin was thrown into the river as a very broken – and broken on every level — man. And David emerged out of the Little Colorado River like the phoenix out of the ashes. He had metaphorically walked through the fire, or, in this case, swum through the currents, and had come out alive. He was born again.

And, that is what I think healing is all about for each of us. It is calling home our energy; it is calling home our disenfranchised pieces and parts. It is letting go of the toxic and the outdated. It is reclaiming ourselves.

David no longer needed his braces; he became a shaman, teacher and artist and went on to work with priests and addicts. He died in his middle years in the mid 1980s.

P.S. Remember David sketching during his tour of the Pacific and speaking Russian when the Allies first found him half-dead at the camp? It turns out that David was channeling, i.e., energetically merging, with the Russian artist Kandinsky. In fact, Kandinsky’s best friend came to the U.S. from Russia. The friend, the story goes, told the press that he felt as he had spent the day with Kandinsky.

The Circle of Light





Call forth the light.

Call forth the light.

Even amidst the darkest of moments — the shadows of treachery and trickery, the clouds of confusion and the eclipses of the soul — know with complete certainty that there is always a place of light. It can be the smallest flicker or a blinding brilliance, but it is unquestionably there.





Call forth the light.

Call forth the light.

Call out and beseech the light. Invite the light. Seek it out in any form or permutation. It is your touchstone, your guiding force and your spark of creation. It is also your pathway to ascension and your wellspring of unconditional love.





Call forth the light.

Call forth the light.

Dearest Ones, I beckon you to come forward. Show your face, bare your eyes and be present to this moment. Step into the circle and welcome the light as your pathway to transformation.

With full choice and conscious intention, take the first step into the pool of light and permit yourself to be purged of that which no longer serves you. Allow the light to cleanly burn away the effluvia of your days. Allow the light to heal, restore and shapeshift your essence into full clarity and resonance. Allow the light to elevate your vibration. Allow yourself to become illumined once again.





Call forth the light.

Call forth the light.

Call forth the light.





Hardwired for God

There is a soul “seed” of high vibratory, intracellular structure that is hardwired into all the layers of the body. The seed is buried deep within the pineal gland. This seed holds the essential connection with the Divine and the infinite mysteries.

For many women, this seed of potential is activated with childbirth; for others, the seed is potentiated by the birth of creative acts and/or divinely-inspired unions. There is creativity, sacred marriages, balancing the divine male and divine female, and, of course, unconditional love. This speaks to the God matrix: balance, connection, union, creation and unconditional love.

The seed carries a cellular memory of oneness with the Divine. The cells do not forget. once the seed case is cracked, the God code is opened and the God matrix is vitalized. It’s as if you plug yourself into Source and, the entirety of Source’s network, aka the God matrix, lights up in collaboration and co-operation.

It is all within you. You are hardwired to be in direct union with the Godhead (aka a modern mystic) by living your life honoring the divine union, honoring yourself with this realization that you carry the God within and by pursuing acts of creativity and balance.

Are you being creatively playful? Have you opened yourself to divine inspiration? Have you rested in the still point of balance? Are you able to love unconditionally?

The tiny whisper of the deeply buried soul seed is yearning for light and nourishment to sprout and grow. Are you ready to crack the God code and awaken the God matrix within you?

Step onto the Light Train

The ascension process takes the concept of fast to warp speed. There is much work to reach that portal of ascension. There is the inner work of clearing and releasing, boring down into the depths of your being to resurrect your authentic, soulful self. However, once we commit to a life of higher service and alignment with the divine, things accelerate quickly.

Ascension does not mean death in this context. Ascension means accelerating your vibratory rate, expanding your consciousness and seeing with eyes of the heart. It is operating from a place of unconditional love and unconditional faith. It is believing that all will unfold perfectly. There is no worry. There is peace and equanimity within and without.

The ascension process is best visualized as an upward spiral with symbolic gateways along the way that progress to more expanded levels of connection with the Divine. Ascension is a process of moving to the Light. It is a process that has welcomed the shadow and incorporated and transmuted the shadow into the light, thereby expanding the individual radiance.

If you are ready for speed and acceleration, you are invited to step onto the Light train and travel the spiral pathway. As you do so, you increase your individual radiance. This not only assists you, but it also helps those who have preceded you and those who will proceed after you. Everything is connected.

When you have cleared and claimed, accepted and surrendered, and you feel ready on a soul level, you, too, will travel at the speed of light.

And so it is.

A word on the Afterlife

Do you remember the Frank Capra movie, “It’s a Wonderful Life”?

James Stewart plays the lead character, George Bailey, who reluctantly stays in his hometown to run the family business. Due to some family mishaps, George becomes despondent, drunk, and wishes he had never been born. George throws himself off a bridge and is rescued by Clarence the angel, who shows George what life would have been like for his family and friends if George had not been born.

Upon reviewing his “unborn” life, George understands the difference he has made in the lives of his loved ones. Despite impending disaster and failure, George runs home, giddy with love for everyone and everything in his hometown. I think the afterlife is a bit like that.

The way I understand it is this: When we die, we have a life review. We look at the life we have lived from the soul perspective. This is always unconditionally accepting and loving. Our version of Clarence the angel says something like, “Let’s roll the video,” and we experience, from a soul level, a review of our life. This is not a punitive measure to determine blame, nor to judge right or wrong, success or failure. This is a soul assessment of our life, seen with detachment and compassion. What were our choices? What kind of person have we been? Have we acted with kindness and generosity of spirit? Have we been able to forgive, apologize, or right a wrong? Did we share ourselves? In essence, have we acted with a good heart and grown closer to understanding that we are all connected, we are all one?

There is the story of the man who had a near-death experience (NDE) in which he traveled as far as his life review. He came back to life and his friend asked him what he had learned. He answered, “I should have been kinder.”

This reminds me of ancient Egyptian mythology. Upon death, the heart, considered the home of the soul, is weighed against the lightness of the goddess Maat’s feather. Her feather symbolized truth, justice, and balance. This was the measure of a life, a light or heavy heart, and this determined the outcome of the soul in the afterlife.

That seems like a fitting measure of a our lives. Are our hearts heavy or filled with light?

Take the step

You are ready. You are fully standing in your power. No more equivocating, fretting or spinning in place. It is time to unfold into your fullness, your raison d’etre for this time now.

The energies are with you. You are supported by the universe.

Take the step. Then, take the next step.

Feed the energies with your action and motivation and willingness to fully commit — both feet in — to the universe and higher good.

And so it is.

To the traumatized and wounded

Yes, you were traumatized. It happened. No one knew how brave you were, how courageous your were. You took it all in; you absorbed the chaos and craziness into your body. It wasn’t easy to stay grounded and remain in your body.  There was lots of pain. There were cascading feelings of never doing it right, never being enough, no good, just bad, bad, bad. It was your fault. You were always responsible for everyone’s feelings.

That is history and brain tapes and body memories, which, oddly, enriched your awareness and sensitivities and amped your levels of compassion — for most everyone, but, sadly, not often enough for yourself. Work hard to make peace with yourself and your history. You are way too hard on yourself. Go very gently. Understand it was a past trajectory and mightily endeavor to see yourself anew.

You are a lovely, light-filled Starfish, swimming on this bluegreen planet. You are a visitor. Please know it is important for you to be here now. It is time to detach and grow away from the shadow of the trauma. It is time to unfold into more complete alignment with your soul, Starfish. It is time to swim in the light.

You will make it. Remember, blessed release is possible.

Refill yourself with light and joy. Find goodness and happiness in the smallest of treasures before you. As you attend to the lighter and higher frequencies, you will attract more and more of these life-giving energies. Yes, it happens. Have faith in your higher self, Starfish.

You are loved, guided and protected.

And, so it is.

Take the time. Now.

Take the time. Take this time now to heal, become more present, more conscious. It’s time for you to go within — delve deeper — in order to prepare and re-align yourself to go out.

Breathe. Take the time you need. Now.

There is no better tomorrow without taking the time for today.

Refresh, sort, clear, cleanse, move, exhale, be still, listen, and, above all, be loving towards all that you are, all that you have been and all that you will be.

These are very important times for you. Fertile, rich with potentialities, shimmering with energies. Take the time now. Attend to you.

And so it is.